tears.

I woke up this morning, excited to see Landon today but wondering how the day would go. I continued on and baked him brownies like i said i would for his birthday. Even though his birthday is tomorrow, i thought i probably wouldnt get the chance to see him tomorrow so might as well give it to him today.

At first i was scared that he was gonna want to just stay home today and play this new video game he got last night cause he was so into it. He told me however that he was gonna come, he had to put the video game down anyway.

I then find out that apparently a water pipe busted in his basement so he has to help clean that up now. I was wondering how long that would take but i told him to tell me when he was done.

Then he told me that he has to the mow the grass too. I was like damn, but hoping he could still come over. He told me he was sorry if he couldnt come today but we'll see.

So now im waiting. Waiting to see if i get an answer. Will i get to see him today?

I baked these brownies just for him and i want to give it to him. I wanted to see him before he started work next week cause then i wouldnt know when i would get to chill with him again.

If he was my boyfriend, i wouldnt mind i guess. I know he would try to come today or at least make some time as soon as possible to hang out with me. I bet we wouldve even hung out tomorrow, on his birthday.

I miss him though. This summer was suppose to be perfect. We would finally be able to get to see each other more and everything.

Seriously. What did i do to deserve this. All i want is him. Him as mine and i couldnt possibly ask for anything else.

I hope he does come over today. This brownies just sitting here right in front would be heartbreaking.

I need him.