sigh.

i am never gonna get better am i?

This morning i talked to kim for a while and just cried my eyes out. i realized so much this morning, but im gonna keep my feelings to myself now.

Anywho, Landon had an interview with Target today and he got the job like i said he would. I'm trying to get him to hook me up now. I need a job badly.

Man, i had so much i wanted to say but my mind is only focused on him. I felt sick after eatting dinner and ended up throwing up. I think i even threw up a little blood :X

But yeah, i need to just try and keep everything to myself. No matter how much it hurts me, i know i got no chance with Landon again so i guess i just got to face it.

I'm always gonna love him though, no matter what. Nothing can ever stop me.

I guess right now, im just focused on getting a job. I handed in my applications a week ago to a bunch of places but still nothing yet. I know im screwed, thats why im hoping Landon can hook me up with a job at Target. It would be fun to work with him also.

Man why wont he reply.