broke.

gahh i feel like im going crazy on the inside.

i finally was able to reach that lady at target today...cept she told me that all the positions were filled already. she did however tell me that she might be hiring again within this month or next month and shes gonna keep my application so if my qualifications meet she'll call me for an interview. man i really hope i get this job, or any job really. im broke and i need gas moneyy.

2nd thing. i want my car alrady. my midnight blue pearl 2009 honda cr-v. gahhh. i want to be able to cruise around in it and call it my own. have my own set of car keys and play my ipodd. gahh.

wow i just noticed im basically saying the same thing over and over everyday in each entry. i cant get this stuff off my mind!

anywho, i've spent the last couple days at kims house. sunday, monday, and today! i wanted to hang out with landon tomorrow, but he's probably busy so i wont be able to..thats why im gonna go back to kims. i dont wanna stay home so why not.

i wish i had money. we need to get out of the house but almost every place you go involves having money. gahh.

i still cant get landon off my mind. i miss him so much. i'm always thinking about how things would be right now. how things should be.

this sucks. i have no luck at all. seriously. its like landon took all the good luck and left me with nothing. nothing is gonna work out for me. ugh. such a pessimist.

thanks a lot.