hmm.

I like writing in this blog, thank you priscilla for getting me to start it.
I think its because only a very few actually know about this blog so all this info is more secretive. I can fully write out names of people and everything and not really worry about past friends going on reading it and just knowing everything bout my life. Sure, some people might stumble across this blog, but better than writing in my xanga and letting everyone else read it.

But yeah, im glad im actually keeping up with this also. I feel like im always trying to find an excuse to write in here. Just helps my mind recollect my thoughts i guess.

Anywho, last night was an ok night i guess, until i woke up at 4 something and kept waking up every 15 or 30 minutes. Annoying as fuck. I wasnt even fully asleep, i was basically half asleep each time also. My arms were hurting so that didnt help at all either. I felt like no blood was flowing through my arms or anything and it was an annoying aching pain. My arm still hurts right now but not as bad i guess.

Jonathan Rodriguez still disgusts the fuck out of me. I rather talk to Landon than Jonathan anyday. That fucktard can go roll his fat self down the street.

I told Landon to try and delete my number off of Jonathan's phone when he gets the chance to and everything. I dont want Jonathan to have my number at allll. If he gets pissed or something than he might go giving it out or some shit. BLAH.

I'm glad this is all stopping now. Better now before he decides to try and rape me or something. That ass hole. Landon told me that if Jonathan ever tried to rape me though, that he would fucking smash his face in. Thank You~

I think im gonna tell Landon that if Jonathan ever asks him if I'm ignoring him or something, to just pretend he doesnt know about it so that maybe Jonathan might say more shit. I wanna hear what else he has to say about his intentions and everything and then kick that dickface in the head.

But yeah enough about that douche bag.

I'm glad i got my buddy Landon back. I really miss him, as a friend, and as my boyfriend. He told me he still isnt over me either, but he has a girlfriend so i dont know. I just really miss him. I want to hang out with him again soon and everything, its nice.

I'm hoping one day we get another shot together, but it doesnt really seem that likely right now. I just got to live on and wait to see what happens.

I miss my baby.