hmm.

SO! Today was a hella boring dayy.
It was also my 3rd day with my period and it was killing meeee. I felt like i was dyingg D:

Oh wells. Tomorrow i get to see Landon! :]
I'm happy that i get to see him, I'm always missing him.

I am always thinking about him, always replaying memories throughout my head and always imagining a bunch of scenes where he comes back to me. Back into my arms so i can finally call him mine once again.

Yivan and I are basically experiencing the same problem right now. Love stricken by our ex, however she still has a chance since her ex is still single.

This summer was suppose to be the best summer for me and Landon. I can finally hang out more and everything so we can finally see each other more and all. I'm kind of hoping all this hanging out and everything will make him see how much more he misses me and everything. I would do anything to have him back.

I'm praying every night, praying that i will soon be able to call him my boyfriend again. My mom always told me that if i prayed hard enough and every morning and night i will get what i wish for. She thinks im wishing for my car but really im just wishing for him more. I gotta get into the habit of praying every night and morning though.

My mom prays every morning, she tells me thats how shes getting through life being able to pay for rent and the mortgage and everything so we dont have to go living on the streets. I guess i really should start praying every day and night and actually make it a habit.

This wednesday wouldve been 17 months that me and Landon were together. I really wish we still were togetherrr. GAHH. i know youre probably annoyed of me just talking about him and everything but he's just on my mind all the time.

On the bright side, Jonathan still hasnt tried talking to me or anything. I'm seriously suprised he hasnt cause usually he'd keep trying. Oh wells. Good for me. I don't have to deal with him. Sucks for Landon though, he still lives in the same neighborhood and Jonathan always decides to knock on his door out of no where.

I wonder how awkward it would be if i was with Landon at his house or something and then Jonathan decided to randomly show up without knowing i was there. Would he decide to stay and talk or something or turn around and walk away. He doesnt know that i know about his "plans", well at least i dont think he knows yet. I don't know if he's figured out that i'm ignoring him yet.

I wanna talk to Landon tomorrow and try to see what else Jonathan has said about me. He's such a sick bastard. He told Landon that he was gonna "do me" on his pool table once. HOLY FUCK. disgusting dick face.

Whatever, forget him. Time to make the night go by so i can chillax with Landon tomorrow. I can't wait :]

But still, the only thing i ever want is you.