breaking down.

the only thing i could ever ask for. the only thing i ever want, is you.

it was nice. being able to see him today and just relax with him.

then i just broke down.

i miss him so fucking much and i still love him. i told him that. then i cried. i just cried.

he comforted me of course, but the only thing i ever want is for him to be mine again.

what i would do to just be able to call him mine.

im crying right now. i need him so badly. i feel so weak without him.

why does he have to have a fucking girlfriend. why does this have to happen to me.

i just want to be able to hold his hand again and just hug him. i want to be able to freely tell him "i love you" and just hear him say it back. i want to hear him call me "guapita" again. i want my favorite pillow and blanket back. i want to be able to just look into his eyes and smile because i have the best thing ever right there looking back at me. i want everything to be like it use to be.

once you've had the best, you can't go back. he's stolen my heart, but i dont want it back. i honestly can't love anyone else but him.

my feelings will never go away and they will never ever change.

i'm gonna see him again on thursday. i need to. this time, im gonna talk to him straight. i'm not gonna keep anything to myself, im just gonna pour my heart out.

i want him back. thats all i fucking want. i want him back!

i love you so fucking much and i will never ever stop.