I just found out that he is going away tomorrow. My heart just sank. Am I really going to miss him that much? I mean I guess I kinda know him a little bit more now, but he shouldn't have that big of an affect on me.
I even tried to stop talking to him altogether. Sadly, I only lasted for four days and it was driving me crazy. I couldn't help but IM him not even after the 4th day but during the end.
People are telling me to stop and wait for him to IM me and crap like that. But think about it. Why would he IM me out of no where? I'm not close to him. He doesn't like me. He's not going to miss having someone bug him everyday for no reason. What's the point in waiting?
I'm trying to hard not to get my hopes up. I don't want to watch it fall right back down. I need to learn to give up. This has been killing me for days and there's not much I can do about it.
If anything our convos have been dead. I should just stop before it just dies all together. When school starts I'll think about hitting him up. But until then, I really should stop.
He's killing me and he doesn't even know it.
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